Fear is fading fast!

Recently I came to the realization that the majority of my actions over the past three years have been taken due to feelings of fear. I read a book in February '06 that sent me into a downward spiral which was enhanced by finding out other disturbing facts surrounding world events and history. My mindset since then has been one of urgent preparation, care of loved ones, and defense against "enemies." I purchased a house and some land at what I considered "a safe distance" from a major population center with the aim of preparing to grow enough food to feed myself and all of my friends and family who might need to be saved from the coming disasters. It has taken me several months of solitude, contemplation, and relaxation to realized that this state of underlying fear in my mind simply is not beneficial and is a waste of my precious time in this plane of existence on earth!

Many of my closest friends, family, and acquaintances have patiently heard me out as I foretold of the dire straights that I foresaw in the future of the United States and the rest of the world. If any of you have suffered unduly from these prognostications, please accept this as my sincerest apology! Please know that I shared the information out of a sense of love and caring so that all of you might be prepared for the difficulties, real or imagined, that I saw in the future. Also, know that I still believe that our nation and our world are in for some major changes, and that I don't recant ANY of the beliefs that I have previously held regarding the energy situation, the financial situation, or the evil, murderous nature of the United States government. It's just that I no longer feel any sense of fear around this knowledge. I just got tired of being afraid, and I made a decision to take action to get out of a constant state of fear and into a state of joy, love, and compassion for all sentient beings!

Lately I have been working diligently to come back into the present moment and to stop living in the future, which exists only in my mind. I've done this by tapping into the infinite Source of love, power, connectedness to everything that I will henceforth refer to as Source. Funny... it rhymes with The Force! This seems to be what I hear other folks refer to as God. I frequently go to meetings where lots of people for many years have referred to Source as God, and sometimes I do too. The meetings always help me to tap into Source. Meditation has become an essential tool for making contact with Source. Books (a great pleasure to me) have also been indispensable in my quest to get back to a place of joy, peace, and freedom which flows freely to me when I am in close contact with Source. This place is the present moment. The more time I'm able to spend in the present moment, the less time I live in fear! This has not happened for me over night, but rather has been a result of quite a bit of effort and work; however, the work that I've done seems miniscule relative to the serenity, peace, and freedom that I receive from Source when I do make the effort!

I now know that I am not simply a human being that people refer to as Eric Mix. I feel, know, perceive that I am pure consciousness--a part of the universal consciousness--that just happens to be interacting with the physical world in this part of the space time continuum via my physical body. This body, like every other human body before or after my time here, will decay and eventually cease to function. Nobody really knows what will happen after consciousness and the force of life that comes from Source leaves my body. Logically speaking, the worst thing that I can foresee happening is that the body's dying might be like an eternal sleep. The best that I can imagine is that I will return to Source and join with the eternal consciousness of the universe--a state that could be bliss beyond the capacity of my mind to comprehend! Knowing that I am not simply a set of mental, emotional, and physical characteristics brings me a great sense of peace and love, which is, in essence, the end of fear : )